.....remembering a walk in the snowy night.

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drafts

to post or not to post?

not.

I can't post this draft.

too private.

too personal.

so I keep it.  To look at and read.

"edit posts"

Wish I was brave enough to post it.

adventures

I know what you're thinking.  And the answer is no.  I am not going on any amazing adventures this summer.  Everyone I know is, but I'm certainly not.
Friends are going -

And I will be doing this -

okay, so I do get to go to Boston for a week.  But, that's all.  I'm not jetting off anywhere cool.  Just working my butt off. Sigh.

Today I decided to start compiling a summer reading list.

I spent an hour in The King's English

(my mother's favorite bookstore)

getting suggestions of good reads from the ladies who work there.

I'm going to be spending all my spare cash on books this summer.

I love them.

So here's my list (in no special order):

Eternal on the Water-Joseph Monninger

Special Topics in Calamity Physics-Marisha Pessl

Little Bee-Chris Cleave

Cutting For Stone-Abraham Verghese

Sarah's Key-Tatiana de Rosnay

The Many Lives and Secret Sorrows of Josephine B-Sandra Gulland

Love Walked In-Marisa De Los Santos

If you have any suggestions of books to add to my list, please let me know.

I want to read lots this summer.

So give me your suggestions.

love

I need...

....a new job.  I loveeee working at BBW, but I make squat.  That's right.  Salary = zero.  Okay, that's not exactly true.  But almost.  It's such a hard job - I know, selling lotion doesn't seem hard at all (you have no idea) - but they don't pay well at all!  I'm very grateful to at least have a job in this economy right now (okay I have 2 jobs, but TITP isn't one I'm going to leave so I'm not discussing it in this post), but seeing as I just bought a car, I need to make more money.  Plus, I'm an adult and soon enough I'm going to have to start fending for myself (meaning no living with parents, paying car payments as well as insurance for my car, etc).  So, I need a job that can support me better.
Something I've decided - finding a job is basically a job in and of itself, only you don't get paid for it.  It's SO hard finding a new job.  I spent time today looking online at places, and all the rest of this week I'm going to be handing out resumes and making zillions of phone calls.  I need a new job!!!  I just don't want to quit BBW until I have something else secured because I at least need to make some money.
Ugh, life is stressful.

Anyway, I hope summer is treating you all well!  It's a little cold for my liking right now - I just want warm enough weather so I can dive into my pool every day.  That'd be nice.

happy thought at 10:05 am

fact: a Dodge Durango gets approximately 8-10mpg. And to fill half of it's gas tank = $50.  gross.

another fact: a Toyota Corolla gets 27-35mpg. And to fill it's entire gas tank = probably $30.  heaven!

fact #3: I no longer have to pay $50 for half a tank of gas.  Why you ask?

fact #4: I got a car!!!!!  A 2009 Toyota Corolla to be exact.

this is my happy thought of the morning

OBSESSED!!

it's.....

...summer time!!!!!

You got that right - I am officially halfway through college (eek!) and it's now summer!!!
I am so excited for lazy days in hammocks, picnics, crossing things off a list, Boston (!), turning 20, and learning more about myself as life continues to give me wonderful gems of happiness, and sweet moments of bliss.  This summer is going to be one for the books, I can feel it. :)

don't judge

yes
      I should be studying

yes
     I shouldn't be blogging

yes
     I need help

yes
    Ahhhhhhhh!


Here is a little tidbit about me that you may not know.  I'm opening up quite personally right now - please don't judge me.  I just need somewhere to vent and somehow I'm a better venter when I'm typing because I can type faster than I can hand write things.  Anyway... I am a worry wart.  Probably the biggest worry wart you will ever meet.  No seriously, ask anyone.  I worry all the time (usually I am over-worrying about stuff that I should not be worrying about - mostly because I have no control over it).  So I am currently worrying.  And over-analyzing (which is another thing I do excessively).  Both things I shouldn't be doing right now.  I have no reason to worry, or over-analyze.  Yet I do anyway.  And I don't know why!!!
So I'm blogging about this in hopes that somewhere out there in the world of people who read my blog, is someone who can give me advice on how to not worry so much.  How to not over-analyze.  Seriously, it would save me from many headaches and tears.  Help?!?


Aside from all that, life is soo great! 

now back to studying....