so much thinking

You know when things become so routine that you don't even think about them happening? Such as getting into a car and suddenly finding yourself at your destination without any recollection of how you got there? That's how I am currently feeling about my spirituality and my testimony. It is hard to imagine that with a calling as amazing as mine I can so easily put the Gospel and the Savior in the back seat, but it's happening. I go through the motions, and I don't even think much about what I am doing. I just do it.  I am currently in the midst of a 21-day challenge for sorority—a challenge to get closer to Christ. I think at the beginning I had my heart in the right place, but I've fallen back into just doing it without even really thinking. I've done some things that I'm not proud of recently, and all I can say is that I am so grateful for the Atonement of Jesus Christ, and the chance that I have to move on. It's been a crazy two days of thinking, my brain on high alert for any spiritual signs of relief, or help to move on. But I know the help will come.  I ask and I will receive.  If I do my part everything will work out just the way it is supposed to.  It's a scary thing, it will take courage, but I can do it. And I will do it.

"The Redeemer can settle your individual account with justice and grant forgiveness through the merciful path of repentance. Full repentance is absolutely essential for the Atonement to work its complete miracle in your life. By understanding the Atonement, you will see that God is not a jealous being who delights in persecuting those who misstep. He is an absolutely perfect, compassionate, understanding, patient, and forgiving Father. He is willing to entreat, counsel, strengthen, lift, and fortify. He so loves each of us that He was willing to have His perfect, sinless, absolutely obedient, totally righteous Son experience indescribable agony and pain and give Himself in sacrifice for all...For your peace now and for everlasting happiness, please repent. Open your heart to the Lord and ask Him to help you. You will earn the blessing of forgiveness, peace, and the knowledge you have been purified and made whole. Find the courage to ask the Lord for strength to repent, now. I solemnly witness that Jesus Christ is the Redeemer. I know that He lives. I testify that He loves you personally and will help you."

-Elder Richard G. Scott

not wanting to be home

Well friends, I'm home. And I don't want to be here. Not at all.
I just spent the greatest week in California with my friends, and I had to come home, and now I have to go back to school.... Please, no.
I don't want to be here! Take me back!!!!

 Me, Jess and Aubrey at Disneyland.

Don't worry, we spent 15 hours there!

Best trip to D-land ever!!

 Me, Jess, Jamiee and Aubrey at the beach yesterday!

It was so much fun, we played football and just hung out at the ocean.

The whole crew.  

Seriously, best trip ever.

I miss it sooo much!!!!

(and I've only been back for a little over an hour...)

Reunion trip? Definitely a must!

headed off to 92690 and 92592

Leaving the snow....

going to Cali!

Stoked right now.

I promise to take tons of pictures to document my adventures on the coast!

See you in 5 days!

xoxo
-K

one year ago

So much has changed in the past year—it's insane how much I've been through and how much I have grown.  This is where I was one year ago.  I cannot believe it's been a year since this was my life!  Time certainly does fly.

On Tuesday I am leaving for California!!! I cannot wait to get out of here for awhile and have a break!  So excited!

great news!

31,000 words later...

I am done!!

No more 500 words for me!

I may have just done a happy dance around my room.

Don't judge me, you'd do the same thing.

so....

I cannot stop remembering a conversation from a 28th floor windowsill,

 staring down at a city...

But, everything happens for a reason.
And I'll be okay.

"Nobody is ever happy 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Rather than thinking in terms of a day, we perhaps need to snatch happiness in little pieces, learning to recognize the elements of happiness and then treasuring them while they last."
-President James E. Faust

currently

I am in love with:

-leggings. Plain and simple, they are the best form of pants ever. (Fun fact: when I was little, I called them leg-ins. Still haven't kicked the habit)
-my new shower-head! In all the years I've lived in this house (almost nine) I have never had a shower as good as the one I took last night. The water actually stayed warm for longer than 5 minutes, and I am so happy about that!
-the fact that Elder Thornton gets home from his mission this week! Samuel and I have been the greatest of friends for sooo many years, and I cannot wait for his return!!

-the Les Miserables soundtrack! Absolutely wonderful.
-memories, because as much as they might hurt, it's still nice to think back and remember those happy times.